Gemma got me thinking about my CF today and how compliant i am with it.
The fact of the matter is that i have let it slip big time, i can sit here and say "oh but i cant fit it all in because i have Connor to look after" but its not that at all really, i should be doing it because it is my life and if i want to be here to see Connor grow up then I'm just going to have to suck it up and start doing them more.
What i do at the moment is insulin and night time times manly oh and Creon but i never miss Creon. i am missing out on my TOBI Neb's (do them once in a blue moon) and my DNAEs Neb's, morning pills and phyiso 2x a day.
and I'm hit and miss with my inhaler.
I'm so angry with my self and i cant keep going like this as i wont get on the TX list when i need to because you have to be fully compliant or they don't do the TX.
I have got a book and have done a page with all my meds in and then i can tick them or put a cross if i miss them.
I'm really going to try, i have done it before so i know i can if i put my mind to it.
Other news I'm waiting for a bed at papworth because I'm so tired and out of breath, i need a good rest and looking after.
I'm looking forward to some ME time too but will miss Connor more then words can say but its this or stay ill and just sit there and not playing with him or anything.
I don't want to be that kind of mum.
I'm going to join the gym soon too, well i think it will be opening up soon as it looks done. i cant wait, i hear its very good for your lungs and so is swimming so that will be what I'm doing over the next few months.
Connor is going to a new play school once I'm out of hospital as I'm fed up with the one that he is at now, there cr*p and its not good enough for him, were sending him to one that nearly twice the amount of money but its so much better for him and my dad and Matt's dad will be paying for it anyway so we don't have to worry about that at all and when he is 3 he will get it for free so its not for long.
Right I'm going and have a rest, I'll post next once I'm in hospital.
p.s happy new year everyone x