Mrs

I'm now a married woman!
The day was great and i loved every minute of it, everyone said it was a fab day and they all had a lovely time. my dad got upset reading his speech out and Russ (best man 2) got lots of laughs!
in the evening i changed out my dress in the jeans and t-shirt!!!!! only i could do that on my wedding day as so many people told me.


I'll add some photos of the day for you all...

Few things have been going on this last few weeks,

1st off were getting a new bathroom and a new front door were just waiting for the builder to get back to us with a start date, when the bathroom is all done I'm going shopping and getting new towels and bits to go in there so its all lovely and nice!

2nd we have a dishwasher now!!!! my brother fitted it for us yesterday and I'm on my 2nd load of dishes in it (might have put things in that didn't need washing so i could use it) it isn't very loud so that's good and its also a slimline one so its really very cute looking!

3rd joined up with the gym last night in an attempt to get my LF up and out of the 30% range as I'm really not liking it being there, next papworth app isn't until 2 weeks today so that's a nice few weeks without having to worry about my LF and gives me chance to get it up with the gym. I'm starting swimming and the bike 1st and think i might join a class or two of yoga for something.

4th got my PEG date for around the end of Aug so I'm pretty angry with that as they said it would be 2 weeks after the wedding and so i thought they would be booking it in march for June time but nope they didn't book it till just now grrr!
but on the + side of things i get to enjoy swimming without a button for 2 months before not going swimming for 3 months due to having the tube in.

don't really have much more to say at the mo, I'll blog again with my 1st day at the gym next week!!!

Last few days as a Miss!!!

3 Days!!!

That isnt long is it? i dont know where the time has gone.
Its been none stop here and i havent even had time to myself to do anything.
To moz i have to take all the bits down to the hotel so that they can set it all up on friday for us.
Got my eyebrows waxed after we have dropped everything off.
Had my nails done yesterday again but im not having them done again now, im going to do them myself. i was working it out yesterday and in a year i would spend over 550 pound to have my nails done every 2-3weeks but if i got all the bits and did it all myself then it would only cost me around 200 pound and then just buy the pots of gel as and when i need them.
Already got a few bits off ebay last night and im going to buy a bit a week.
Just got to learn to do them now!

I have been doing lots of ebaying this last week, making a bit of money and also making some room in the house!
Sold connors staire gates and highchair so thats made some room and selling some of his old clothes that dont fit him anymore, just bits like that really.

V is doing so well after her TX, its been 9 days now and she is really coming along. She is in a bit of pain but after having new lungs that to be excpected i guess.
She sure did pick a week for it tho with the hot weather, she is stuck in a stuffy hospital room with a fan on her, i dont thinik she can open the windows for infection risks?

Next time i post i will be a married woman!

Mad Month!

Time fly's when your having fun....isn't that the saying? I'm not sure i have been having fun but time has been flying this last month, what with the wedding plans and being on i.v's for 3 weeks (end Friday) i just never seem to have a spare min to myself.

In 9 days i will be a married lady! that is scary, very scary but also its the start of something new, being a grown up in a way...but you would think having Connor would have made me grow up, don't get me wrong it did, alot. but this isn't the same i think the main thing that makes it more grown up is that i will be changing my name, it kind of feels like i wont be me anymore....I'm not sure that even makes sence but i think the scary bit is changing my name.

We want to get a morgae in the nest few years too so we have to start saving for a deposit now so we will have a good one and then when we have lived here for 5 years we can buy the place off the council so I'm looking forward to that.

everything is looking like things are starting to go our way for once!

In other news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My close friend Victoria got the call on Saturday night and got the gift of new lungs on Sunday morning!!!!! i got a text at around 5am from my friend Gemma telling me about it and i was so happy i screamed lol Matt tho there was something wrong! (i didn't get the text till around 8am when i woke up) I'm so proud of her, i was so worried while she was having the and even more so when she was still asleep before they woke her up! she is doing so well and like i say I'm just so happy for her, i talk to my mum about alot of my CF friends ( vic, gem and kay mainly) and she was so happy to hear about Victoria too!

Connor now is at pre-school Monday afternoons and Wednesday all day! he is growning up so fast! after the wedding is over with i need to start and sort out his 3rd birthday, plan and invite people and book a place or sort out a BBQ....still don't know what were going to do for him yet.
He hasn't been to well today, had a temp most of the day but the only good thing is that the wedding isn't till next week so he has a week to get better.
He looks sooooo sweet in his little pageboy suit!!!! i cant wait to see him next to Matt when they are both dressed up, going to look so cute!

I'm getting a spray tan done next week for the wedding! never had one before so fingers crossed i will look ok, if i don't then I'm screwed haha. *photos to come*


*To much on my mind to think how to spell sorry lol*

Six Weeks And One Day!

Till our wedding!!
There isn't really that much more to do i don't think, got to get the cake but as were getting that from M&S we cant order it till 2 weeks before and the only other thing i have to get is the wedding favors....Oh and we have to get our rings but Matt's mum is going to Dubai next week so she is going to get them for us as we only want plan bands so may as well save some money!
Matt has to get his best man gifts (he has 2 best men) and that's about it i think...I'm going to do my own make-up coz i didn't wanna have to pay lots for someone else to do it when i can do it myself and my hair is getting done by my bridesmaids mate who is a hairdresser so that's not going to be lots too!

Non-wedding things going on at the mo are that I'm getting me PEG (tube in my belly to do overnight feeds) put back in two weeks after the wedding as I'm now in a size 6 jeans and I'm not even filling that! i hate it and just don't want to look ill anymore, so a bit of weight and fat on me will do me good!
i think I'm a little bit more scared in a way of having it put back in because i have already had it in before and know that it is going to hurt for a few weeks after and also that it can get infected like my last one so i really done want that to happen again. i just have to be more careful i think, i just don't want to get a OCD from it lol

Been thinking about Connor's 3rd birthday this week and we are going to have a BBQ and get a bouncy castle for him, i think he will love it and also Matt will too after all it was his idea...tell a lie he wanted one for the wedding but i said no!

I'm going in hospital on the 28th of April if there is a bed at the time so i can start my i.v's before the wedding and be really well for it, I'm hoping to stay in for the 2 weeks if i can hold out for that long that is. i also have to start i.v's right after the wedding so i can be in good nick for the PEG op and then i don't want i.v's again till the winter lol

I now use contacts! also use my glasses when im in like now. i have only used the contacts 2 times so far but there good and i like them :D

Blog From Room 2

All my blog seemed to be is about me being ill these last few months lol

I came back in hospital on Friday for some i.v's and was meant to be going on on the Saturday, that's didn't go to plan when i had another turn on the i.v's, this time it was from Mero i.v. as gemma's words....evil i.v
so i got a temp over 40 and was so cold i couldn't stop shacking, they stripped me down and pulled my cover off and even put the air con on to cool me down! i wasn't happy at all as i was so cold to start with but they said if i didn't cool down then i could have a fit.

So i should be starting to have more i.v's on Monday and then they want to keep me till Wednesday to make sure everything is ok then i can go home and do the rest of the i.v's at home.

My friend Victoria had her 8th false call for a TX last night so that was really upsetting for me coz i just want her to get that new life so much, she is so strong and never shows that it has upset her or anything. it will be this year...it has to be.

9 weeks and 5 days till I'm a MRS! not long, there is so much i still need to do that we haven't sorted yet coz I'm not feeling gr8 but once I'm out of here i will get alot more done.

Connor came to see me today in hospital and we went out for lunch (with Matt, mum and dad too) i wont get to see him now till I'm home as he has pre-school on Mondays and Wednesday. i don't mind to much coz i know he don't like it here and gets bored easy so its not fair to keep him up here just for me.

When we came up here there was a note saying that we cant have flowers on the ward anymore :( Matt laughed and said it got him out of buying me them now! not that he did much before!

The new rooms are really nice, i'll have to get some photos before i leave. the toilet light just comes on when you open the door i love it! its all big and open, its gr8.

Going to go now but will blog again with what the next lot of i.v's are.

Being Unwell Isnt Any Fun With A Toddler!

I'm ill

Its not fun to start with and even less with Connor, even tho he don't mean anything by messing around and banging it really isn't helping.
Yesterday Matt's mum had to come down and help out, i got a 2 hour nap out of it!
And today my mum has been down helping out altho she has gone home for an hour to put some washing on and should be back any min so i can have a bath as me and Matt and some friends are ment to be going out for a meal tonight for Matt's 25th birthday to moz but I'm really not feeling up to it but don't want to let him down as we don't get to go out much as we have Connor so i said i will come but if i don't feel well while were out we'll have to go home.

I think i have said before that i got Matt a long weekend away at center parcs this weekend from Friday to Monday, i really wanted to be well and have a good time...we'll have to see how that goes when i get back and blog about it.

I'm going back in hospital next Wednesday and I'm kinda looking forward to it (is that wrong?) as they have just re-opened the CF ward! they have been working on it since oct last year so it should be good. My friend who used to work at papworth told me she had a look at the ward before she left and said the TV are really big!

Connor is putting stuff out the cat flat....tut!

I'm having my nails done on Monday after we get back from center parcs, it will be the 1st time i have had them done in about 2 years. I'm getting them done for the wedding but want to get used to them again so having them done now. I'm also not having them done very long as i don't want them to look fake.

We have got a few more bits done for the wedding, the DJ is booked, picked what cake we want but cant order it till end of April as its from M&S, got the suits hired, booked a guy to do the photos and when I'm out of hospital or off i.v's I'm going to get the bridesmaids dresses and sort my hair and make-up and flowers but i may do them to moz while Connor is at school if i feel up to it.

Everyone keep saying i have to have a hen night, they wont drop it! I'm not sure i want one and if i did i wouldn't really want to do much as after looking after Connor all day I'm really tired so there is no way i would want to go clubbing or anything like that.
My mum said it might be coz I'm not feeling to well at the mo so i said i'll see how i feel once i have had some i.v's and then if i want a hen night we can sort something out.

I made a milkshake today........it didn't really turn out right lol so I'm going to have to look up how i make a thick one as I'm not in to thin ones.
I even put in a shot of that calgin (spelling) stuff that i got from the hospital to help with my weight but didn't end up drinking so that was a waste.

I was put on a new pill by my GP last Monday night so started taking it on the Tuesday and but the Thursday i was ill, feeling sick, tired, bad back ache and a few other things I'm not sure anyone really wants to know about! so i didn't take it yesterday or today and today I'm feeling alot better then i have been for the last few day so I'm happy about that the only down side is that i'll be on for our stay at center parcs grrr but I'm feeling better so that's the main thing.

S Is For Stress!

Don't get married if you know whats good for you!
oh my god i keep getting so stressed out, if its not over one thing its over another, family's fighting me and Matt both sticking up for our sides and our parents adding people to the list to invite who we don't know......ARRRR!

I'm not even having a hen do because i just cant be bothered with it all, i don't really drink so don't want to go clubbing, do like spa days and all that cr*p, don't like pub crawls so that's a no and i hate all these hen do bits like 'L' plates and devil horns and stuff.
The only think i would prob do is go out for a meal and even then it wouldn't be very many people coz then it would turn in to that hen night everyone else has......and i wouldn't ever have a stripper!
But then again i might change my mind.....

Matt is going to London for his stag do, its all he has talked about, he don't care really about the wedding and hasn't done anything at all for it really its just all about his stag do, he is on the phone to his mates every day about it, grrr why do men have it so easy? i just wish he put as much in to the wedding as he is with the flipping stag do.

On another note i went to papworth yesterday after being off i.v's for 4 weeks and my weight is the same so that's some good news but my LF has dropped 7% from 44% to 37%! I'm really not happy about this as i have been working so hard to do all my pill and nebs and phyiso and it looks like its just for nothing, it feels like i have just been wasting my time.
The Dr didn't seem to bothered about it and said because i feel well in myself and are not really breathless that maybe it isn't a true % and that if I'm really not happy about it that i can come back in 2 weeks and see what its like then and if its the same or lower i can have some i.v's.
I would feel alot better having some just to get my LF back up and then maybe it will stay up now were getting out of the cold months and closer to summer!
Also if i start them on the 17th march i will be done by the last day of the month and then have April free and then I'm booked in to have some i.v's 3 weeks before the wedding so that I'm in tip top shape for it.

Also want to say a big get well soon to my friend Vic who is in hospital on her 4th week of i.v's, keep your chin up hun xxx